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Back Again
Jul. 30th, 2012 10:59 pmAnother post, and it hasn't even been a month! What's up with that? I must be making things up to post more often.
So next weekend I'll be going out on a double date with Dana and her boyfriend. Dana set me up with a friend of hers, though the closer it's gotten to then the more i'm not really sure I want to date this girl in the long run. Some (might be read also as 'most') of my problems with it consist of her current standings in life, such as the fact she has a 6 month old son, for starters. Or the fact she's unemployed, or that the baby's father is a drug addict. I seem to be finding plenty of reasons to avoid her altogether, but I'll be going on the date due purely to the fact that I did ask Dana to help me with finding someone to date, so I owe her that much at least. Who knows, maybe I'll be really smitten with her once I meet her, but I'm not gonna hold my breath.
Started playing some of the games I have on backlog yesterday. I'm starting with FF 13-2, and so far it's pretty good, to my surprise. I have a ridiculous list left to do, and honestly I doubt it's even possible to finish them all before the end of the year as I'd hoped, but at least it might be some motivation to actually play through some that I wasn't really interested in.
I realize I sometimes have a bad habit of distancing myself from people, this isn't exactly a new discovery by any means. I tend to do this when I feel like we're not getting along super well in a way that makes it so I'm the one ending our connection instead of the other way around. But to that end, it feels like my friends from the BG area have really shut me out lately. I suppose in light of how much I've done this in the past I probably deserve it, if the slight chance that it's actually true exists, but it's kinda rough none-the-less. On a number of occasions they have seemingly put no effort into accommodating my schedule so that I can join in a few different activities. This extends into other areas too, but overall it's just like they've formed their own tight circle, and I'm not really a part of it any more. With how little I spend time with anyone else, it's really starting to feel like I've got myself isolated. Interesting how I had wanted this at one point, but now that I'm stuck in a situation that I feel I finally am, I want it the way it used to be. Oh Rob, you silly, fickle moron you.
I'll update after the double-date to share how that went, so look forward to an awkward recount of my first date in a couple years! lol
So next weekend I'll be going out on a double date with Dana and her boyfriend. Dana set me up with a friend of hers, though the closer it's gotten to then the more i'm not really sure I want to date this girl in the long run. Some (might be read also as 'most') of my problems with it consist of her current standings in life, such as the fact she has a 6 month old son, for starters. Or the fact she's unemployed, or that the baby's father is a drug addict. I seem to be finding plenty of reasons to avoid her altogether, but I'll be going on the date due purely to the fact that I did ask Dana to help me with finding someone to date, so I owe her that much at least. Who knows, maybe I'll be really smitten with her once I meet her, but I'm not gonna hold my breath.
Started playing some of the games I have on backlog yesterday. I'm starting with FF 13-2, and so far it's pretty good, to my surprise. I have a ridiculous list left to do, and honestly I doubt it's even possible to finish them all before the end of the year as I'd hoped, but at least it might be some motivation to actually play through some that I wasn't really interested in.
I realize I sometimes have a bad habit of distancing myself from people, this isn't exactly a new discovery by any means. I tend to do this when I feel like we're not getting along super well in a way that makes it so I'm the one ending our connection instead of the other way around. But to that end, it feels like my friends from the BG area have really shut me out lately. I suppose in light of how much I've done this in the past I probably deserve it, if the slight chance that it's actually true exists, but it's kinda rough none-the-less. On a number of occasions they have seemingly put no effort into accommodating my schedule so that I can join in a few different activities. This extends into other areas too, but overall it's just like they've formed their own tight circle, and I'm not really a part of it any more. With how little I spend time with anyone else, it's really starting to feel like I've got myself isolated. Interesting how I had wanted this at one point, but now that I'm stuck in a situation that I feel I finally am, I want it the way it used to be. Oh Rob, you silly, fickle moron you.
I'll update after the double-date to share how that went, so look forward to an awkward recount of my first date in a couple years! lol
