Journal Time

New project for myself, I want to record the dreams I have so I can remember them past the day I have them. This will hopefully be the first of many in this journal.

 I don't remember all of it, but it was a sort of post apocalyptic dream. But instead of the typical reasons it was a massive flood that caused the end of the world. I was in a sort of skyscraper with a bunch of friends and family when the tsunami-like wave hit. The force of the wave itself cause the building to tip and eventually fall on it's side, which caused the building to take some considerable damage. The scene ended with the windows which were now above me shattering and a torrent of water and glass came crushing down from above. 

Another post, and it hasn't even been a month! What's up with that? I must be making things up to post more often.

So next weekend I'll be going out on a double date with Dana and her boyfriend. Dana set me up with a friend of hers, though the closer it's gotten to then the more i'm not really sure I want to date this girl in the long run. Some (might be read also as 'most') of my problems with it consist of her current standings in life, such as the fact she has a 6 month old son, for starters. Or the fact she's unemployed, or that the baby's father is a drug addict. I seem to be finding plenty of reasons to avoid her altogether, but I'll be going on the date due purely to the fact that I did ask Dana to help me with finding someone to date, so I owe her that much at least. Who knows, maybe I'll be really smitten with her once I meet her, but I'm not gonna hold my breath. 

Started playing some of the games I have on backlog yesterday. I'm starting with FF 13-2, and so far it's pretty good, to my surprise. I have a ridiculous list left to do, and honestly I doubt it's even possible to finish them all before the end of the year as I'd hoped, but at least it might be some motivation to actually play through some that I wasn't really interested in. 

I realize I sometimes have a bad habit of distancing myself from people, this isn't exactly a new discovery by any means. I tend to do this when I feel like we're not getting along super well in a way that makes it so I'm the one ending our connection instead of the other way around. But to that end, it feels like my friends from the BG area have really shut me out lately. I suppose in light of how much I've done this in the past I probably deserve it, if the slight chance that it's actually true exists, but it's kinda rough none-the-less. On a number of occasions they have seemingly put no effort into accommodating my schedule so that I can join in a few different activities. This extends into other areas too, but overall it's just like they've formed their own tight circle, and I'm not really a part of it any more. With how little I spend time with anyone else, it's really starting to feel like I've got myself isolated. Interesting how I had wanted this at one point, but now that I'm stuck in a situation that I feel I finally am, I want it the way it used to be. Oh Rob, you silly, fickle moron you. 

I'll update after the double-date to share how that went, so look forward to an awkward recount of my first date in a couple years! lol

Happy June, peeps. Realized it had been around 3 months since I last posted anything, so I figured I'd probably reached a mandatory time frame in which I was required to update, lol. 

Visited Tony down in Houston last week. Was good to see him, but he worked every day I was down, and beyond that I don't really know what the purpose of my visit was beyond a typical trip. I don't think I can afford moving down there any time reasonably soon, at least. I'll be visiting Myrtle Beach SC in a couple weeks with my family for a vacation, which will be nice. If I don't come back with a tan from that trip something is wrong with my skin, lol. 

E3 is in 4 days! I didn't even realize it was so close before it was already right on top of me. I can't wait to see if anything unexpected is unveiled, or at least maybe details on games I've been waiting to hear about. Mostly looking forward to any news on Vs. 13, KH 3 and a few smaller projects, maybe even a FF 15 unveil? naaaah.

Plenty more good movies to see this Summer. I've already seen Avengers 3 times, Dark Shadows, and there was another one that I can't quite recall atm, but Spider man, Prometheus, TDKR, Brave, and a couple more are still to come. Thinking of having a movie theater marathon tomorrow while EVERYONE else goes to a friend's wedding. Thanks for the invite... oh wait. (bitter much?)

Hey there. Been a little while, I think. I didn't check to see how long it'd been since I updated last >.>

I'm doing pretty well with paying off bills, despite wasting a bit of money on stuff I didn't really need. Though I suspect that the coming months I'll be able to do better with my frivolous spending. Was able to pay off my Paypal Bill-me-later account this month, and I've already covered some of march's bills, so once I get my bank account out of the red with my next check I'll put a large chunk towards my bank overdraft account. I should be able to have that paid off in March, then on to my chase credit card. I've also decided starting tomorrow I'm going to get up early and start actually looking for a second job. The extra money is really needed right now so I can pay off my bills a lot faster than I am currently. I'm hoping to be able to put some aside after I pay off a bunch of my bills.

I quit playing LoL! Stupid game is really addicting, even with how bad most everyone else is on that game... My current gaming goal is to try and go back and finish some of the games I bought but never got around to playing. I have enough of them I could probably go a good number of months without ever having to buy anything to occupy me. I'm thinking Shadows of the Colossus will be next after I play Skyrim that I borrowed from Tony a bit more. 

Part of that unnecessary spending I mentioned earlier was getting back on Eharmony. I wasn't having much luck at first, even though one person seemed rather promising, but recently I started talking with a girl by the name of Ching, she lives in Hong Kong. The idea of her living on the other side of the globe bothered me at first, but there's no guarantee that things will work out that far anyways, and if it does then I'll deal with it when the time comes. For now I just want to enjoy it for what it is and not worry about all the details. 

It's been a few days since my last post, and I'm glad to say I'm feeling better than I was. What I said last time is still true to a point, but I think the reason I was so caught up in it was a lot of accumulated stress from the work week. I've been going to bed early the last couple days and taking it easy otherwise, and it's done wonders to make me feel more relaxed.

The parts for my computer finally came in today. After setting everything up and booting it up everything was cool til my tower started putting out smoke like a small chimney, lol. I turned it off right away and checked out what the problem might be. Turns out I screwed up the wiring a bit and reversed the DC charge input for a cord, which ended up frying it to an aromatic crisp. Luckily I caught the problem fast enough nothing of actual use was damaged, the cord itself is something I didn't even really need, so all's well and working.

On a separate note, Valentine's Day was yesterday, one of the only holidays I tend to dislike, having pretty much always been single whenever it came around. Despite my disliking of the holiday itself, it passed by mostly unnoticed this year. Maybe next year I'll finally have someone to spend the day with, only time will tell for sure.

I think I'm going to have a bunch of free time tonight at work, so I might get around to updating the story I started back for NaNo and never got more than a few pages of finished. I've had a growing interest in getting back into writing, and I think I should take that for what it's worth while I still have the motivation to do so.

Good Tuesday. Today's been a pretty long day, as I had to get up at noon to get to a workshop meeting by 1, then I went straight from there to work. By the time I get home it'll probably be after 1, which equates to roughly a 12-13 hour day. Which really isn't a bad thing, since I've been planning to get a second job as it is, so it's something I would have needed to get used to soon anyways. I still need to start on that, too... Job hunting is hard to find motivation for when you're already working full-time.

I never ended up hearing back from Madeline, not that I'm much bothered by it at this point. I do feel that I'm much more confident with the idea of actually asking a girl out in person now after the events surrounding Madeline, which in the end is something I should probably be happy about. I'm not really sure what I want to do next just yet, but I feel like whatever it is, I'll be much more willing to follow through with whatever the decision ends up being.

On a final note for this update, I've decided I'm going to change my major at school to Medicine, particularly I'm going to aim to be a physician. I feel like I've wanted to admit that I wanted to be a doctor for a long time, but my bitter memories of working in central all these years was leading me to be a bit immature about it. Well, no more. It's a good job, I just have to work super hard towards it. As long as I can manage to keep focused and motivated I know I can accomplish anything I set my mind to.

Moved into my parents house on Thursday, still have a ton of stuff in boxes, which I need to sort through once I have a free day. I figure I have this coming Monday off, so I'll probably spend it job hunting for a second job and the latter part of the day I'll use to unpack and decide if I really want to get rid of some things like dishes and kitchen stuff, since it's probably just going to sit around for a couple years if I keep it.

Elliot (My cat) is doing pretty well at getting along with my mom's dogs, rather it's those two that haven't quite gotten used to a cat being around. I'm glad to see nothing is as crazy as I'd prepared myself to be with how hyperactive those dogs can be at times. I got a wireless internet adapter, so I can get on the internet. I had planned to get a new video card for my computer too, but I don't have enough for the one I wanted right now, so I figure I'll just save my money and get it next pay check or something.

I've been watching Nisemonogatari and some something-Natsu-something show on top of space pirates, both are pretty good, which is a pleasant surprise.

I'm trying to get in touch with a girl that was working at the hospital until a few days ago. I'd been interested in her for a while, and was planning on asking her out, but the other day she came to get something and told me it was her last day. It took me by surprise at first, which prevented me from asking her out on the spot, and when I went up later to try and see if I could find her I wasn't able to. I found her on FB, and sent her a friend request so that I can send her a message (she has her security set up so you can't message her without being on her friend's list, it seems). So hopefully she'll accept sometime soon so I can take the plunge and ask her on a date. Worst case scenario is I stay single, and don't talk to her again, which would have been the case if I hadn't tried at all.

Back to work for now, got a few things to finish before I can go home at midnight.